Ramblings

Powerful, unsettling words....

2011-01-23T20:04:00.002-06:00

I read the following post on facebook today.

Shamefully, I did know when this woman was pregnant and can not think of a single thing I did to reach out or offer support. While I do believe the prayers I have offered up for her, and the precious girl she gave birth to have not returned void- I dare say that they count as reaching out or actual support.

Let me start by saying - I CHOSE LIFE. I lived it. The beautiful baby girl I had turned 6 this past year. My decision to go with adoption was the hardest decision I will hopefully ever have to make in my life, and I received virtually ZERO support from my "pro-life" Christian community.

With the anniversary of Roe vs Wade this past Friday, seeing all the CHOOSE LIFE posts really made my blood boil. It's easy to say choose life, - but much harder to actually back up your beliefs with actions. And it certainly requires much more than a status in all caps. Being Pro-life means much more than being anti-abortion.

My issues with the my church community did not start with my pregnancy - it started a few years before. I converted to Catholicism in high-school, and I was on fire for my faith. My 'cradle catholic" friends were inspired by my enthusiasm, and together our faith strengthened.

At the end of my junior year, I made the decision to drop out of high school. The pressures of weight and body image in my dance department were really affecting me in a negative way, and I was miserable. My mom fully supported (and encouraged!) me to make this decision - she could see I was not in a healthy environment. (ps - I ended up going to college on a scholarship). Then, to my shock, I was kicked out of my youth group. I was told that even though I was still high-school age, since I was not in high-school, I was not welcome to attend the youth group any longer. This was devastating to me, especially considering that I just recently converted. I was not old enough to be in a young adults group, but not welcome in the youth group. It was truly a blow, and it was the beginning of feeling like a mis-fit in my faith community. (for the record, I feel like any high-schooled aged kid should be welcome in a church program that preaches acceptance. just saying.)

All my life I had been raised Pro-life. My parents were a shelter home for years for women with unplanned pregnancies. We attended pro-life rallies when I was a child. It was something ingrained in me from a young age - Respect Life. When I found out I was pregnant (Christmas day, 2003 no less) I was terrified. But honestly, abortion never even crossed my mind. I was still attending mass at my church, but kept my pregnancy quiet for as long as I could. Once I started to show, it was clear that people were VERY uncomfortable with my condition. I have NEVER in my life felt so judged, or been so shunned. I dreaded going to mass, and eventually stopped, because the condemning stares were more than I could bear. The "support" that Christians purport to offer was not extended to me. I even attempted to find this support system myself, with no luck. I wasn't waiting around for people to help me - I went looking for it, and came up totally empty-handed. This was especially wounding from the women in my parish who were so adamantly "pro-life". I recently found out that my priest had been questioned for "allowing" me to take communion - apparently, some parishioners were upset that such a sinner as I would be allowed to receive the host. THANKFULLY his response was to fire back that "who could possibly need it more than this young mother and her child?" But to many, I was an eyesore and an embarrassment.

I went to Catholic Charities to try to get some information regarding adoption. I didn't decide until around my 5th month that this was the route I wanted to go. Unhelpful, full of mis-information, I felt like they were more interested in the money they were going to receive (a healthy, white baby is a pretty hot commodity in the adoption world) than in helping or counseling ME. (there is plenty of counseling available for the adoptive parents...ironic?) They also put quite a bit of pressure on me to hurry up and sign their contracts, considering I was so far along already.

Ultimately, I ended up meeting an amazing couple through a mutual friend. They are truly fantastic people. We did not use an agency for the process. I have NEVER regretted, or questioned, my decision. I miss that baby girl every day of my life. I know I made the right choice for me, but MUCH more importantly, for her. Before you tout "pro-life" opinions, consider what it would mean to support someone making a hard decision like I did. It's already difficult and scary and confusing to deal with an unplanned pregnancy - feeling shunned by your community is devastating on top of it. Instead of standing outside a clinic protesting, consider supporting and encouraging one of these young girls instead. Crisis pregnancy counseling is not available anywhere by anyone who does not have an agenda to push - take it from me, I know. It's easy to preach CHOOSE LIFE....it's harder to really live out that conviction by offering true support.

My prayer is that the generations coming behind mine can get this right. That their conviction to "choose life" won't merely be posted on their facebook status, but truly LIVED through their actions. That their belief in a God who gave His life so that we might ALL live, will truly transform their ability to embrace those whose sins may be different than theirs.

Win the day!

2011-01-11T13:44:00.003-06:00

I am a tried and true, desperately loyal, college football fan.

I love the sport. I love the environment. I love the traditions. I love that (for the most part) the players haven't been corrupted by million dollar contracts- so they play with a purity that isn't present in the NFL.

But what I love most about college football is when you stumble across a coach who is changing lives, not just winning games. A coach who cares more about the world outside of football, than the legacy of wins and loses he accrues in his career.

Last night was a wonderful football game. Two teams, well matched in their talent and ability, tied up to the last 2 seconds of the game.

And yet, this morning it's not the winning team I can't quit thinking about. It's Chip Kelly, head coach of the Oregon Ducks.

"Kelly preaches a single message to his team, and it’s this: Win the day. Who cares about tomorrow, who cares about yesterday, all that is demanded of you is that you win the day. That means have an excellent practice, that means have an excellent day of rest, that means every hour of every day, be there, be present. That also means do not think about the National Championship, just think about today, just get up and do your work." (This quote is taken from Donald Miller's blog- where you can read more about the Oregon Ducks and Chip Kelly)

And I am left wondering what the world would look like if we, as Christians, truly adopted this motto as our own?

Win the day. Win the day by winning each interaction you have with another human being. Win the day by reflecting His grace and mercy in whatever trial faces you this hour. Win the day by honoring God in the conversation you have on the phone, the email you send, and your facebook status. Win the day by extending forgiveness rather than anger. By offering patience instead of intolerance.

These sound like such lofty aspirations, but I just wonder how much more we might reflect our Creator if we simply focused on winning the day, or the hour, or the minute at hand?

After all, we aren't guaranteed tomorrow, so why not focus on winning today for Him?

A quote to challenge you...

2011-01-06T19:57:00.002-06:00

At the suggestion of my dear friend Heidi, I put "Choosing to SEE" by Mary Beth Chapman on my Christmas wish list.

I have not been disappointed.

I am so excited about what God is stirring in my heart by reading about Mary Beth's journey, and will undoubtedly have more to share about this book as I continue to journey through it.

My favorite quote so far:

"People need to know that Christian leaders, singers, preachers, writers, whoever, are as cracked and broken as the next person. Maybe more so. Hopefully they are in positions of leadership, though, because they are serious about following Christ, and so people can see that real success in the kingdom of God is not about being strong and looking good and knowing all the right answers. It's about continually yielding oneself to Jesus and determining to take purposeful little steps of obedience, and the ragged reality that its all about God and His grace at work in us."

So, I give to you my New year's resolution: "continually yield myself to Jesus, determine to daily take purposeful little steps of obedience, and start each day reminding myself that the ragged reality is it's ALL about God and His grace at work in me."

Ringing in a new year, with a new habit....or two!

2010-12-31T12:59:00.002-06:00

Well, not that anyone is still waiting around for a new post from this old blog, but I have decided to try and make a goal of posting once a week throughout 2011. I want a record of what God is challenging and teaching me, as well as all that He accomplishes throughout the year.

It is too easy to just survive each day, and start the next without stopping to see His hand in everything that happened throughout each day.

So, I'm ringing in the New Year with some new goals, all attempting to create and instill some new habits in my life.

What are your goals for 2011?

Day 27 and Day 28....

2010-03-24T11:27:00.002-06:00

Day 27 and Day 28 are a package deal because I probably wouldn't have ever experienced a real friendship with Joe, if it hadn't been for Heidi. I also believe that the Lord used Joe's relationship with Heidi to help the two of us wade through some difficult waters and come out of it all with a friendship that can withstand the test of time, separation, and growing old!

I met Heidi my freshman year in Manhattan, fall of 1998. We both had boyfriends that weren't right for us, but we didn't know it. We have weathered boyfriend drama, friendship heartache, family crisis, passing of loved ones, a wedding, moving states away, the birth of three beautiful children, and so much more over the course of the past 11 plus years...and with each day that passes I am more and more thankful for the gift of her friendship.

I consider it a huge bonus that Joe loves Heidi enough to encourage and strengthen our friendship, even if it means he is home with the kids for the weekend so we can drive to meet up and just be in the same place.

Joe gave me one of the most incredibly humbling gifts a guy could give a friend of his soon-to-be-fiance. He included me in his master plan for proposing to Heidi. He asked for my help, told me his plan, and included me in helping to make sure it went off the way he envisioned it. He also showed me the ring before he popped the question. His actions honored the friendship that we shared up to that point, but also demonstrated how deeply he loved Heidi and truly knew her heart.

They are the kind of friends who are also your family.

I love you both, more than you'll ever know!

Baby Back Libs

2010-03-24T11:23:00.002-06:00

Just to break up the posts about the 30 Rock Tour....

Anyone having Baby Back Libs for dinner tonight?

Baby Back Libs from Ashlee Liddell on Vimeo.

Day 26...

2010-03-24T10:54:00.002-06:00

I want to try to express to you just how meaningful the past 26 days have been for me, but every time I sit down to try and put my thoughts together it simply doesn't flow the right way.

What I know to be true is this; God's love is extravagant, unfailing, life-changing as well as life-giving, and eternal. His love is freely given to each of us, and the more you allow His Love in to your life, the more you start to experience its extravagance and depth.

This entire tour has been a daily reminder to me of how the Body of Christ is one of the ways that God desires to lavish His love upon His children. There have been some real challenges for me this past month, and it's as if God chose each day to build on the next and remind me that building up the Body of Christ enables others to experience His Love in a whole new way.

My letter was from Tami, and it just so happened that my gift was from her as well. Tami has been compiling each letter and turning it into a visually stunning masterpiece for me to open each day. Each page is different from the next, but each day also coordinates with the one next to it, making this book truly one of my most loved possessions.

Tami, I love you dear friend.

Day 24 and Day 25!

2010-03-22T09:25:00.003-06:00

This gift was so much fun to open! I am going to have a video blog to show you all what fun I had, but I haven't had a chance to upload that yet. So, you have to stay in suspense until then! How will you ever survive?!

My letter, or should I say letters, were from my parents. I have had such a wonderfully blessed life, but by far one of my greatest blessings was the foundation my parents gave me. From living a life anchored in Christ to giving of yourself to others, they helped instill such important values in me.

Day 25 was a real surprise! My letter was from my good friend Josh. Josh has the distinct honor and privilege of being married to Tami, who has been creating each page of this special book. I don't exactly recall when I first met Josh, but I am sure that it was one of his first visits to Houston to see Tami. I have had the honor of being a part of Josh and Tami's wedding, meeting their daughter the day she was born, and just living life with them.

Perhaps the thing I love most about Josh is his honesty. Upon first meeting him, and getting to know him, it might have been the thing I disliked the most but know I truly admire and appreciate it. He calls it like it is, whether it is "a good time" or "the right way" to say something are not huge factors in his thinking. His honesty has challenged me on numerous occasions to dig deeper into my beliefs about God, His word, His people, and my own values and priorities. For that, I am incredibly thankful.

He stinks at his choice of sports teams to follow, but I guess I will give him a pass since he sure knew how to pick a wife!

Thanks, Josh, so very much!

Day 23...

2010-03-21T21:29:00.002-06:00

Day 23 was so much fun!

Aside from my Rockin' Tour, I got to see Jennifer Knapp in concert, with some pretty great friends and Amy's icecream too! It was technically what Amber wanted to do for her birthday, but I consider all celebrating that occurred during the 30 Rock Tour to be in honor of my birthday! :)

Day 23's gift was a beautiful, hand-painted "A" frame. It is perfect. Such a wonderfully thoughtful and unique gift. It captures my feminine side with absolute perfection! I think it is one of the things that has made each gift so incredibly meaningful to me, the way they demonstrate my friends love and knowledge of me so clearly.

And my letter was from my great friend, Susan! I met Susan in 2003, but it certainly seems like I have known her most of my life. If you are lucky, at some point in your life, you will encounter a friend (or a couple of friends!) who is a true kindred spirit. Someone with whom you can lounge in your PJ's with, share a hotel room with, stay up past midnight watching Survivor, or go to the movies and laugh at all the same things.... Friendship with a kindred spirit happens so naturally, so quickly, and gives you such comfort.

My prayer is that each of you have experienced a friendship with someone who is a true kindred spirit.

Day 22!

2010-03-18T08:47:00.004-06:00

Day 22...

The letter yesterday was from my grandparents, Ma and Bob. Today's letter was from my grandmother, Gma Betty. I am so thankful to have these special treasures in my book, and even more thankful that I have lived 30 years of life with such wonderful, loving grandparents being a part of my life.

Today I opened some playing cards shaped like a bunny! They are so cute! There was a good long stretch of time where we (coffee girls) would gather almost weekly to play cards and drink coffee. We don't get to do that nearly enough anymore, but we sure do love the chance to play games together. And I love the chance to play games of "chance" together!

Can you believe you have been following this crazy 30 Rock Tour for 3 weeks now?

Thanks to everyone who has come up to me and mentioned you were reading along....feel free to comment too!

Day 21...

2010-03-18T08:36:00.002-06:00

Day 21 is brought to you by Cracker Barrel, and one of the cutest little girls ever!

Why I thought it would be "such a good idea" to film this little video at a loud restaurant, with a two year old, and AFTER we had just reminded our waitress we were waiting on biscuits, is beyond me!

But you people seemed to like the scissor video, so I simply had to include it!

Untitled from Ashlee Liddell on Vimeo.

And yes, I had a two year old unwrap a piece of paper. :)

Day 20...

2010-03-18T07:47:00.002-06:00

One thing I have loved about blogging through my 30 Rock Tour, is that I have a record of these 30 Days to look back on and remember all the love showered upon me during this tour.

That being said, Day 19 held a birthday surprise that wasn't in the big box on my kitchen table! My dear friend Susan took me to dinner at the Melting Pot! What an incredible treat! I had been to the Melting Pot before, but only for dessert-not a full FOUR course meal! It was a wonderful experience and, as always, great conversation. Thank you Susan for helping to make my birthday so special this year!

One Day 20 my Little Letter was from Addison, Tami and Josh's daughter. I can still remember the night she was born, and the way her arrival changed her Daddy instantly. Tami and I have known each other since childhood, and having the privilege of also sharing a relationship with her daughter is extra sweet.

The neat thing about Addison's letter was that I actually was with her when I opened it! What a special memory! (Addison's Mom is also the dear friend of mine who is putting all these beautiful pages together. I wish I could show you all how beautiful they are....)

On Day 20 I also opened up some recipe cards and a cute notepad! Who doesn't need recipe cards? What a wonderful gift! I also would like to report that I have been writing almost everything lately with my SHARPIE PENS! You have got to try these things- they are amazing!

Day 20- what a wonderful day!

Ashlee Scissorhands...

2010-03-15T17:47:00.003-06:00

Ashlee Scissorhands from Ashlee Liddell on Vimeo.

Yes, I did in fact "secure" my scissors as well as an innocent co-worker's scissors, to ensure that we lose no more pairs of scissors. Death toll for adult scissors in the last six months: 6. This called for serious action....

What goes missing at your work place?

Day 19

2010-03-15T15:19:00.002-06:00

Well, don't look now, but day 19 is actually being posted on its correct day!

Today I opened a card from one of my favorite "A" girls- Alaina! She colored the front of my card pink, and wrote, "Happy Birthday Ashlee." On the inside she drew a picture of the two of us, and on the other side of the card she wrote this message:

I love Ashlee because she's silly and because she's Ashlee and I think that's great.

On the back of the card she wrote; From Alaina and Pinky Ashlee Unicorn.

Who is Pinky Ashlee Unicorn, you ask?

Well, let me tell you a story. For Jadyn's 4th birthday I asked her if she wanted to have a special day with me instead of a birthday present at her party, and she took me up on that offer! We went to lunch at the place of her choosing, to Toys R Us to pick out a toy, and just had a fun day just the two of us. Well, for Alaina's 6th birthday that same year, I made her the same offer. She declined.

For Jadyn's 5th birthday she was already planning her special day with me before I even asked her about it! That meant Alaina had to watch Jadyn get two special days with me before ever choosing to have her own. Well, this year, for Alaina's 7th birthday she took me up on the offer to have a special day with me. Her selection for her birthday gift was a unicorn, that happens to be pink.

After we had purchased her unicorn, and we were driving to lunch, I asked her what she was going to name her unicorn. She thought about it for quite awhile. While she was thinking I suggested to her that a great name for her unicorn would be Ashlee! She was having NONE of that! At lunch she declared her unicorn's name to be, Pinky Ashlee Unicorn.

Can she really be seven? I still remember taking her places when she was a baby and how people would just stop and stare at her, all remarking how beautiful she was. What joy she has added to my life over the past seven years...

I have no idea how many "little letters" will be in my special book, but there are lots of "little ones" who have stolen my heart!

My gift today was a hot pink beach towel! Just what I need- more hot pink! I did a little bit of shopping today for my big birthday bash, and I am so happy to be able to have some of my favorite people all together for a special night of fun!

So, what is the best thing that happened to you today?

Day 18...

2010-03-15T09:11:00.002-06:00

Oh my! Day 18 threw me a curve ball...

My envelope had two pages, and the first one said, "Little Letters" and had an envelope from Princess Jadyn! The other page had lots of pictures with me and some of my favorite children on the planet....oh the tears were rolling before I ever opened Jadyn's masterpiece creation!

One of the things that I love so dearly about each of the friends who have put this 30 Rock Tour together for me is the role they let me play in their children's lives. I love and cherish each child, and the unique relationship that is forming with them as each day passes. They bring so much love into my life. I can't wait to see what God has in store for their precious lives, as I know He has already used each one of them to teach me different things.

One of my favorite picture of Jadyn and I was also included on the picture page. It was the night she first had icecream. I love that it was me who gave it to her! (Even if her mother didn't at the time...) I love that I can remember her precious face, and remember her falling asleep in my arms that night, and that I really don't remember much about the game. What a wonderful memory!

Day 18's gift was a snack box from Heidi. It was full of special snacks, as well as recipes for some of her favorite snacks! What a creative and wonderful idea. Can't wait to try some of her recipes! Thanks, friend!

And, for a bit of 30 Rock Riddles for each of you..... Now that I can see the bottom of this huge box of presents, I was trying to put them in order and such and realized that there is NO #30.... hmmmmm. What could that mean? Any guesses?!?

Day 16 and 17...

2010-03-15T08:31:00.003-06:00

I know, I know...late again!

Day 16 was one of those days where I absolutely needed to hear from the person who wrote my letter. It has a long, hard, rough week in ministry for me. To be real honest, I was operating on fumes by Friday. And Friday morning, I opened letter 16, and it was from Greg Garcia, my boss. His words were just the reminder and encouragement I needed to hear to finish out the week, and weekend.

I don't actually recall when I first met Greg, but I do recall the exact date of our first real conversation. It was October 5, 2004, exactly one year from when I had resigned from my last church position. He asked me to take a risk and join another church planting team. On paper I was agreeing to walk right into the same situation I had left a year ago, just a different place and different people. Taking that risk has been one of the best decisions I have ever made!

Greg has been an incredible mentor, gently constantly pushing me to grow in my personal and professional life. I cherish his friendship, his family, and his Godly example of servant leadership more than words could ever express.

My gift on day 16 was a bright and cheerfully colored luggage tag and small bag combo set! I was already rejoicing for the brightly colored luggage tag, and looking forward to my big vacation in May!

My gift on day 17 was the cutest cross key chain with a Starbucks gift card hanging on it! Just love it! It was also in the cutest little box, which I just adored.

My letter on Day 17 was from Debbie McCool. I first met Debbie when I went home with Sarah McCool Zullo one weekend our freshman year. Her mom was great, but I would have NEVER guessed what God would do in our lives after that initial meeting. Sometime our junior or senior year at MCC, God transferred the McCools to Houston. They started attending the church I grew up in, and by the time I had returned home in 2002 Debbie was already serving on the church staff at this church. I worked with her for several months, and somewhere in that time frame she decided to start a twenty-something women's Bible study group.

It was because of that group that Amber and I really got to know each other well, and that group gave birth to our Friday night group. And it was through the Friday night group that I was blessed with this incredible circle of friends I call coffee friends! Debbie also blessed us with one of my favorite traditions we have as a group, and that is our annual Christmas baking day!

What a wonderful 30 Rock Tour I have had! It just keeps getting sweeter....

Day 15!

2010-03-11T09:34:00.004-06:00

I started this post twice today....let's see if we get lucky this time!

First, I can't really believe that I am halfway finished with the 30 Rock Tour! I know that I will treasure these 30 days for years to come. It truly has been remarkable...

I have lots of gifts inside of my present for today. Some stationary, coordinating magnets, an "A" box, and perhaps my most favorite new thing- Sharpie PENS!!!!! It wasn't until I saw the Sharpie pens that I started to have any leaning towards who the gift was from... Let me just say that I loved the Sharpie pens so much I sat down and immediately made a list! I took them to work, but wouldn't even leave them in my drawer for fear that someone might borrow one. Not only are they permanent, but they are ultrafine and they didn't bleed through anything I wrote on today. I am in LOVE. Thanks so much!

My letter today was from my dear friend Amanda Griggs. I met Amanda a little over five years ago when I first arrived at Creekside. She and her husband were already attending CCF, and I had just been introduced to Amanda when I pointed across the cafeteria to a guy who was packing up the sound equipment. "Who is that?" I asked pointing at this guy. Amanda quickly answered, "My husband." YIKES! Nice first conversation with a church member!

The reason I was asking was because her husband looked so familiar to me...and sure enough, he was! We went to high school together, and knew lots of the same people- even though he is older than me.

What God has done in our friendship since that first day, has been simply amazing. He connected our hearts and lives in such a way that I still am constantly in awe of His handiwork. Neither Amanda or I were blessed with sisters of our own, but I think God managed to care of that by giving us the kind of friendship that happens so naturally you just start operating as family.

I am blessed beyond measure by her friendship, and cherish her family so deeply. I am honored to be Aunt Ashlee to her sweet daughter, and about to be Aunt Ashlee again this August! I can hardly wait!

What a wonderful day!!!

A little suprise for my faithful readers!

2010-03-10T13:19:00.003-06:00

I know I haven't been able to stay on top of the video blogging, so I would like to share with you this video. It was taken during the 30 Rock Tour, but has absolutely nothing to do with it.

It does, however, give you some great insight into a few of the Crazy, and wonderful, people I work with....as well as some of the ways I use my golf cart!

Before watching this footage, I would like to point out a couple of things
1) Yes, Kyla attempted to steal my golf cart prior to this video footage. No, that has no relevance on the events in this video, I would just like for that to be known to the whole world.

2) Joey, although rather silent in this video footage, did in fact approve of my bungee with an extension cord idea for the tree on top of the golf cart. He also told me to floor it..... not that I normally need encouragement to go any faster!

Untitled from Ashlee Liddell on Vimeo.

3) YES, this was us working really hard... REALLY hard. I just LOVE my job!

Day 14...

2010-03-10T09:31:00.002-06:00

Well, we are almost half way through the 30 Rock Tour and I couldn't be any more amazed at this incredible gift I receive every morning. Wow!

Today's gift was from Heidi, and just by reading the card I know it was going to be special. I have very fond memories of spending numerous Easter weekends with Heidi and my adopted family (Butch, Lois, Repo, and assorted crazies from the family!). Not only was it the perfect break in the spring semester, but trips to Plainville were always full of fun, relaxation, and tons of laughter! I would gamble (using pennies!) with Butch, we would have home cooked meals, Lois would always have Easter baskets for us, and there were always dyed deviled food eggs.

My gifts today were both Easter related, which made them even that much sweeter to me. One is a beautiful hanging glass easter egg with dried flowers inside of it. It is so beautiful! The other one was a box of NEON food color and egg dye! I am sure not many people would understand how much this box of food color and egg dye means to me, but Heidi did and that is what makes it so special!

As a matter of fact, I was thinking I might just have to serve pink deviled eggs at my birthday party!

Day 13....

2010-03-09T16:25:00.003-06:00

Today's gift was a rose shaped loofah, which I promptly used in the shower this morning! I really can't decide who might have given that to me, but I absolutely LOVE it! I found myself just smiling all during my shower.

My letter was from Terri Hansen, better known to some as Terri the Dorm Chick! I met Terri during my freshman year at MCC when I was interviewing to be an RA. Little did I know that she and I would be life-long friends! Terri was at MCC the last three years I was there, and I just love her to pieces. I love her family, her new husband (he will always be new to me, because it took him a while to find Terri!), and just hearing the sound of her voice makes my heart smile.

Tomorrow's gift has two boxes....so I can't wait to open it and tell you all about it!

Day Ten, Day 11, and Day 12....

2010-03-08T12:35:00.006-06:00

Well, this week (and weekend!) have been so hectic, I seem to have fallen behind on my blogging again! Yikes!!!

Day Ten was a gift from Heidi. The cutest candy dispenser, with its own little scoop (it is a miniature version of the bins you see candy in at the candy store), full of pina colada and margarita jelly beans! I just LOVE the combination of flavors, but also the memory of sharing my first margarita with Heidi....

My letter on Day Ten was from my Aunt Vicki, and my letter on Day 11 was from my Aunt Gayle, Uncle Clark and Cousin Tom. I still am just blown away that this many people were able to keep a secret from me, and that they would take the time to share these sweet memories with me. I truly have a collection of pages that are simply priceless.

Today is Day 12. I opened my gift, which was an eyemask with the word, "relax" across the top. It is my word for the day (maybe week, or perhaps it should be my word for the month!). What is so incredible to me is how each gift seems to be the perfect little addition to what I am facing that day. God is so good!

My letter today was from my dear friend Reasa Grogg. I first met Reasa when I was a freshman at MCC, and she was a sophomore. Living life with someone like Reasa is a real life shaping gift. I learned a lot about how to communicate honestly and openly from my friendship with Reasa. I also learned a lot about how to speak the truth in love- even when it might be the last thing you WANT to do. Reasa married a "Pit Boy" and know serves God overseas alongside her husband Jon, and their three beautiful children.

One thing I have discovered in growing older is that you have different "kinds" of friends. Friends who know your day to day routines, habits, and preferences. Friends who where in your life for a season, but may be gone as quick as they came. Friends who are like family. Friends who stay close to your heart no matter how many miles are between you and how many years pass between phone calls or emails.....Reasa is one of these friends for me. I know that if I called Reasa tomorrow we would be able to have a real conversation that would bless my heart to no end. I know she prays for me, and I hope she knows how often I pray for her and her family.

This video is from Day Nine....yikes! Video blogging is so much harder than I realized!

Day Ten, again! from Ashlee Liddell on Vimeo.

(Sidenote: I almost cheated on the 30 Rock Tour tonight... it was a long, hard day and I thought opening another letter would be the perfect medicine. Instead I just flipped through all of my pages, reading over each one, and my heart was so blessed, encouraged, and my spirits were lifted! What a blessing this gift is, and will continue to be, for me.)

Day Nine...a real tear jerker!

2010-03-05T17:10:00.002-06:00

Today, day nine of my 30 Rock Tour, also happens to be my brother's 32nd birthday.

Not that this fact particularly has any bearing on the 30 Rock Tour, but it just brings to light just how much this incredible gift has blessed me in ways no one could have known.

My letter today, just happened to be from my one and only brother!

I can not even start to tell you how thoughtful, kind, loving, and humorous his letter is. He titled it, "30 Great Things About my Sister Ashlee on her 30th" and even though I don't know how he did it, he came up with 30 things to say about me. And around number 25 ("But I always still loved her.") the tears started rolling.

Thanks Mike for making my day, which is really YOUR day!, so special.

Video footage to follow, so check back later!

Day 7 and Day 8 all on Day 9.....

2010-03-05T06:51:00.002-06:00

Well, I have really dropped the ball on the last two posts.... I will do my best to not let that happen again!

Day Seven, was such a wonderful day of surprises and laughter! Not only was my gift from Heidi hilarious, but in my envelope was a Top Ten List from my dear friend Jamie (Davis) Cooper! Jamie and I met freshman year at MCC, and have shared so many wonderful memories together. We lived together our junior year in a house everyone called "The Palace!" One of the things I love so much about my treasured friendship with Jamie is I know that even if a year goes by without us talking on the phone, I can call her up and the phone conversation would be just as wonderful as the last time we talked.

And so, after opening Jamie's letter I did just that! We had a great catch up conversation, which filled my heart and soul with so much love. This 30 Rock Tour is really so incredible!

And on Day Eight, I opened some really cute magnetic notepads (which I would guess were from Tami) which filled my heart with joy because I recently put myself on a stationary buying freeze. And once I did that, one of the things I had really wanted was magnetic notepads....so it was perfect!

And my letter was from Teresa Huckaby. Teresa and I met my very first Sunday at Creekside, and she has served faithfully on our children's ministry team ever since that day. There simply are not words to express how much I admire and respect the dedication, sacrifice, and patience Teresa brings to our team. I just love her.... L.O.V.E. her!

Now, hopefully, I can get Day Nine its own post......and stay caught up!

Day Seven....a surprise!

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Today is a GREAT day!

Just wanted to give you a video teaser, with a real post following later!

Day Seven from Ashlee Liddell on Vimeo.

Day Six....a shout out to Lil James!

2010-03-02T21:26:00.002-06:00

Well, I will make this short and sweet...

1) I have no idea why I am my handing waving at the end of this segment is so awkward. I am blaming it on how close the camera was to my hand...not the fact that I was trying to fight back tears.

2) Apparently, I will only wear black tops when I do a video blog post...

3) Although it appears that one section of my hair is a much lighter color than the rest, I can guarantee you my gray hasn't reached that level yet.....

4) Can you guess what is on the hangers laying over the chair behind me in this video? Just take a gander....

5) No, I have no crazy delusions that ALL the people who wrote these incredible letters are watching the videos, even if I say, "Thank you, thank you so much!" a couple dozens times a minute!

Day Six, Just for Jamie! from Ashlee Liddell on Vimeo.

I believe I met Kevin and Lisa Ingram my junior year at Manhattan Christian College, it might have been my sophomore year. (Can Heidi or Jamie help me with this?!) Kevin and Lisa are the REAL deal. They came to MCC to serve in the administration, and kept accepting the new challenges the Lord placed before them, and now Kevin serves as the President of Manhattan Christian College.

One thing I admire the most about Kevin and Lisa is how they invest in the lives of others. They have this amazing gift for not only pouring into others lives, but learning the heart, life and story of those they invest in. I seem to be at such a loss for words when it comes to these two! God's love for His children is so clearly, so richly, and so lavishly poured on the lives of those who encounter these two, that whether they realize it or not they walk away closer to their Creator. My life has been (and continues to be) so richly blessed by their friendship and love for Christ.

Day Five...

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Are you sick of me yet?

Tomorrow I am taking my special book of letters up to the church to show our accountant, one of my good friends, because she hasn't been in to work since I started my 30 Rock Tour! I can hardly wait to show her and brag on all of my wonderful friends.

Today, bright and early this morning, I opened up number five. It was a small gift, wrapped in strawberry shortcake paper, which made me wonder if the gift was from Amber's house. Upon opening it I found a Massage bar from Lush, which required my immediate attention and usage! My guess would be that this gift was from Azina, but whomever it was from, a big thank you. I loved it!

And the letter....was from 2fs.

That's right, 2fs. As in two "f"s found in her first name- an original nickname bestowed upon my dear friend Jenniffer our freshman year of college. I guess I met Jenn on move in day freshman year, and I am so thankful that God put us in the same suite. She taught herself to play the guitar, and by the end of our freshman year she could put most other guitar players around campus to shame. I have had many very precious, intimate times of worship with my God led by Jenn.

I really can't do much thinking about my college years without a memory of 2fs being front and center. Jenn could make any everyday task an exciting adventure or hilarious memory, and my life has been greatly enriched by her friendship.

I love you, Jenniffer.

Day Four, a day late and a dollar short...

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Well, it was bound to happen. As a matter of fact, you might as well plan on me missing a timely blog post on Sundays from this point out....it just isn't likely to happen!

Day four did however end up with some classic video footage. My dear friend Amanda taped me on Sunday morning, and you hear her precious daughter Caitlyn talking in the background. Day four's gift was very unique and my letter was once again, priceless.

Jordanne Bonfield was the author of Day four's gift, and I will admit that I cried while reading it. We met one August day back in 1999...can you believe that Jordanne? She was a freshman in the suite I was an RA in my sophomore year. Jordanne has one of the sweetest, most gentle and encouraging souls you will ever encounter. She also has a fiesty, daring, and adventurous side! True to her gift of encouragement, her letter was just the uplifting my heart needed.

While I would love to spend this post telling you about all the pranks Jordanne was a part of, I will just leave that to your imagination! Jordanne is one of those people who enters your life and leaves a mark that God uses to continue molding you into who He created you to be. What a treasured friend!!! I love you, Jordanne!

Here's some video footage for you to enjoy....only the highest quality for my blog readers!!!

Day Four, 30 Rock Tour from Ashlee Liddell on Vimeo.

Day Three

2010-02-27T10:09:00.002-06:00

Do you want to know the best part of waking up? (name that commercial for a bonus prize...)

Well, I have decided there is no better way to wake up than to realize there is a gift from a friend and a letter from a friend awaiting you!

Today I opened my present with Heidi on the phone (sorry no video evidence from today!) because day three was a gift from her. I opened a box of the cutest notecards and a sparkling rhinestone pen! What fun! I told Heidi how much I have been wanting new stationary but not allowing myself to buy any because I have quite an extensive collection already. What fun!

Then, I opened the envelope for today and it was from Constance Black. Constance and I actually met before we were even students at MCC (I don't know if she remembers this or not) as we were both candidates for the Presidential Scholarship our senior year of high school. We had to come to interview for the scholarship (neither of us received it) and I met Constance that weekend. We then lived in the same suite our freshman year, were RA's our sophomore year, and served together on STUCO our junior and senior year!

Constance always radiated a steadfast confidence to me, and seemed remarkably aware of how God gifted her and what she wanted to do with those talents and gifts. Constance had a far more daring and adventurous streak running through her than I ever did (Kenoyer Hall Swimteam?!?) and I am thankful for all the memories I have shared with her!

And this page came complete with a photo of our STUCO executive board! What a blast from the past!

Day Two

2010-02-26T08:10:00.003-06:00

Well, I woke up early this morning just so I could make sure and blog before I was gone on a field trip today with MDO. Don't want to leave Jamie and Heidi hanging!

Today's gift was in a cute box, which my initial guess was from Amber. Inside the box was a tealight candle holder. It has a wonderful smelling tealight in it, and I love the style and look of the holder. It is something I would have definitely picked out for myself!

After opening the gift, I thought perhaps it was from Tami. But I really have no idea!

Today's envelope was from Sara Kruhmin, formerly Sara Refner! WoW! I have no idea how you guys pulled all this off!

My senior year at Manhattan Christian College I was the house mom for a group of sophmore girls who got displaced from the dorm. The campus was growing and the dorm no longer held all freshman and sophomore females, yet school policy stated they all had to live in the dorm. So, the school moved a handful of girls into a large house, and asked me to come live there and enforce the rules!

I can't even tell you what kind of condition this house was in, because it was bad. These girls got a pretty short stick having to live there. But a really amazing thing happened that year, we became a family. Each of those girls still holds a special place in my heart. Sara, thank you for the letter!

(I don't know if I mentioned this previously or not, but the pages that these letters are placed on are simply gorgeous! I will have to figure out a way to let you all see the final product.)

Guess what? I'm turning 30!!!

Day One, a recap...

2010-02-25T18:25:00.004-06:00

Well, Amber tried to warn me against opening number one shortly after midnight, but I was too excited to think rationally. Now, I have had all day to think about how I have to wait to open another gift!

I know that Jamie suggested a video post of each day, and honestly that is one of the ideas I had but seemed perhaps a bit lofty since I had never uploaded my own video anything to a blog....and let's be real honest, I was only hoping I could remember my login information for blogger!

So, around 12:04 this morning I took the following footage. Consider yourself warned.... watch at your own risk, this two minutes is not nearly as entertaining as the last two I posted!

Untitled from Ashlee Liddell on Vimeo.

I also came up with an idea today that I hope to keep up with every couple of days. I want to share a little bit about how I met the person who wrote the letter that day. Today's letter was from Kyla, who I first met at Creekside. She and her husband were newly married when they started visiting, and I will never forget the Sunday they joined the church and she walked up to me and volunteered to help out in our children's ministry. Growing up a PK, she knew how desperately we needed her and Wyatt on the team! They served on our pre-school team for a while before our friendship took a turn to a much deeper level. We met one day for lunch (or maybe it was dinner) and just shared about the journeys God had led us on, and what He might be asking us to trust Him with.

Since that day God has truly done incredible things in each of our lives, but also in our friendship. We work closely together at church, and I am so thankful for someone who understands my shortcomings and helps walk alongside me to fill in the gap.

If you like this sort of thing...

2010-02-25T08:15:00.004-06:00

This video is, well, pretty awful in light quality, volume control (man I am LOUD!), and having an actual point, but that won't stop me from sharing it with you!

I was up pretty late last night from all of the excitement around my 30 Rock Tour, and think I have figured out how to upload videos to this here blog o mine.

This video is footage from Amber's 30 Rock Tour;
1) Yes, Joe was in fact talking about murdering his wife's dearest friends, missing 24, and the Ya Ya Sisterhood in this two minute video.
2) No, we didn't really have a plan once we got through the front door....
3) Yes, Amber had so much confidence in us that she honestly thought we wrapped a box of toilet paper for her! :)

Untitled from Ashlee Liddell on Vimeo.

History of The 30 Rock Tour

2010-02-25T00:33:00.002-06:00

During a visit with my grandmother, she told me a story about a time she was very ill. She was confined to her bed for about three months as a young wife and mother of young children. As I can only shudder to imagine what one did on bed rest for three months before cable TV and the internet, I am sure staying positive was difficult even for my joy filled grandmother.

Some ladies from her church came up with a brilliant idea. They gave her a basket of gifts, and each day she got to open one gift. As she was telling me this story, it wasn't the gifts that she received that were so valuable to her, it was the excitement of having something to look forward to each day that the gifts brought her.

I was so struck at the incredible thoughtfulness of this gift.

The story stuck with me for weeks. And slowly, an idea started to formulate into a plan. What better way to celebrate an upcoming birthday than to open a present every day leading up to your birthday?

My dear friend Amber had a 30th birthday coming in the next several months, and so I shared my idea with two of our other friends Tami and Lisa. We all agreed it would be great fun to start a tradition for when each of us turned 30. For the 30 days leading up to your 30th birthday, there would be a gift to open each day. And so the 30 Rock Tour was born.

Amber documented each day of her 30 Rock Tour on her blog, and it was such fun for each of us to celebrate along with her.

In November, my dear friend Heidi was also about to move into the third decade of her life. There are a lot of things that you aren't able to share and enjoy as friends when hundreds of miles separate you, but I was determined to not let the miles separate Heidi and I from celebrating her 30th birthday with a 30 Rock Tour of her own!

So now, the torch has been passed to me. I can honestly say that I have never been SO excited about turning 30!

Somehow, without me knowing about what was going on, Amber, Heidi, Tami, Lisa and who knows who else, have taken my 30 Rock Tour to a whole new level. Not only where they coordinating from different states, but for each day I am opening a gift and an envelope. In each envelope is a letter from someone wishing me a Happy 30th Birthday!

The first gift I opened was a scrapbook that only had one page in it. The page reads, "Celebrating You" and has room for me to slide each of the letters into as we go through this tour. The first envelope had a letter from my precious friend, co-worker, and sister in Christ, Kyla Sbrusch.

I can not even begin to imagine what kind of surprises these girls have up their sleeves over the next 30 days!

Shall we say Day "0"?

2010-02-24T23:36:00.002-06:00

Tonight I received the largest box I believe I have ever been given.

On the top it read, "Happy 30 Rock Tour, Ashlee!"

It might have taken an entire roll of wrapping paper to wrap this box.

With a group of my dearest friends present (one via cell phone!), I opened the box.

Inside I found 30 individually wrapped gifts, and a stack of envelopes. Starting February 25th, I am to open one gift and one envelope every day. I have also been instructed to share each day here on this blog.

I have never been SOOOO excited about turning 30!

Thank you so much dear friends, you are so very dear to me.

Anonymous

2010-01-06T15:50:00.002-06:00

It is weird what it takes sometimes to motivate us from complacency to action.

Today it was Mr. (or Mrs., or Miss, or Ms., or...well, you get the picture) Anonymous.

I am sure my cyber-stalking friend, who shall remain nameless, could help me find some clues as to who this person might be, but I'm not sure I want to know.

What has intrigued me enough to post (after the most quiet year I have ever had in blog land) was the content of the comment made.

"Your blog keeps getting better and better! Your older articles are not as good as newer ones you have a lot more creativity and originality now keep it up! "

What is so fascinating to me is that I have struggled so much with jumping back in to blogging because I have felt the EXACT OPPOSITE of this comment.

I have felt this past year, particularly the last half of the year, I have had little time to process through anything - much less write a post about it!

So, anyone else want to weigh in on this anonymous comment?

This might be a little late.....

2009-11-12T20:38:00.002-06:00

For some reason Veteran's Day seemed to mean more to me this year. Don't get me wrong, I have always been grateful, appreciative, and humbled by the sacrifices made by strangers for my freedom.

But this year, it has seemed to really stop me in my tracks. It was personal.

It was all the families who go through each day of deployment, broken, incomplete, and weakened because of their loved one's sacrifice for my freedom.

For my country.

For my president.

And then today, I stumbled upon the meaning behind how the flag is folded. For all those who have given their life protecting my freedom, I am thankful.

So very thankful.

The first fold of our flag is a symbol of life.

The second fold is a symbol of our belief in the eternal life.

The third fold is made in honor and remembrance of the veteran departing our ranks who gave a portion of life for the defense of our country to attain a peace throughout the world.

The fourth fold represents our weaker nature, for as American citizens trusting in God, it is to Him we turn in times of peace as well as in times of war for His divine guidance.

The fifth fold is a tribute to our country, for in the words of Stephen Decatur, “Our country, in dealing with other countries, may she always be right; but it is still our country, right or wrong.”

The sixth fold is for where our hearts lie. It is with our heart that we pledge allegiance to the flag of the United States of America, and to the republic for which it stands, one nation, under God, indivisible, with liberty and justice for all.

The seventh fold is a tribute to our Armed Forces, for it is through the Armed Forces that we protect our country and our flag against all her enemies, whether they be found within or without the boundaries of our republic.

The eighth fold is a tribute to the one who entered in to the valley of the shadow of death, that we might see the light of day, and to honor mother, for whom it flies on mother’s day.

The ninth fold is a tribute to womanhood; for it has been through their faith, love, loyalty and devotion that the character of the men and women who have made this country great have been molded.

The tenth fold is a tribute to father, for he, too, has given his sons and daughters for the defense of our country since they were first born.

The eleventh fold, in the eyes of a Hebrew citizen, represents the lower portion of the seal of King David and King Solomon, and glorifies, in their eyes, the God of Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob.

The twelfth fold, in the eyes of a Christian citizen, represents an emblem of eternity and glorifies, in their eyes, God the Father, the Son, and Holy Ghost.

When the flag is completely folded, the stars are uppermost, reminding us of our national motto, “In God we Trust.”

In honor of ........

2009-10-24T16:54:00.002-06:00

Tonight's victory over Mizzou

OR

Reconnecting with Lindsay

OR

The color orange (did anyone see Tennessee vs. Alabama?!?? That is why college football is truly THE BEST part of fall!)

OR

THE MIGHTY TEXAS LONGHORNS

But whatever reason you chose, you should definitely read this post.

Stress.

2009-10-23T12:43:00.002-06:00

I have this magic stick that takes away my stress headaches.

Today, it isn't working its magic.

Out of you five readers (did you know that we jumped from two to five readers?!?), who else gets stress headaches?

I just want to shut my eyes or cry.....

But alas, I am blogging to ease the pain!

Happy Friday ya'll....here's to your weekend being stress (and stress headache) free!

Hiatus, Sabbatical, Bloggy Break....

2009-10-20T20:11:00.002-06:00

Whatever you want to call it, I think it just might be over....

"Might" being the operative word.

I struggled all summer and into the fall with wanting to blog, but not being sure that I could honestly blog. Too much stuff I felt like I would have to censor, and it just took all the fun out of blogging.

And then there was the addition to regularly checking facebook, which took any blog time I would have away....

Oh and the stress of all kinds of changes at work and personally....

And my list could go on forever, but I think I will just stop here, and share with the two of you who are left checking this blog, that my bloggy break is over.

I feel the need to blog.

So, I will.

Enjoy this video, and try not to cry.... (okay, so I am sure I am the only one in the world who would cry at this video, but for some reason everything in the past two weeks has moved me to tears.....)

A monday treat...

2009-08-17T17:53:00.002-06:00

I have an addiction.

Well, truth be told I probably have several, but today we will tackle one.

I LOVE to buy purses. And bags. But mostly I just love a new purse. I get attached to each purse, and everyday when I use it I smile and get all happy inside. (Too much information? If so, you should stop reading now.....)

But I have put myself on a purse buying freeze. Trying to exhibit great restraint and re-kindle my love and admiration for purses of the past, I have been filling my new purse fix by using purses that I loved to much to get rid of when I purchased a new one.

For last few weeks, I have really been itching to have a new purse. My recycling plan was failing me. The few times I had allowed myself to look around I hadn't seen anything that just jumped out at me....

All of that changed today.

I found my new purse to love... and she was on sale! I hope she arrives before my upcoming vacation....

So, spill it... do you have a purse addiction? Do you recycle old purses? Or are you one of those crazy people who match your purses to your outfits?!

I have always wanted to register

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I finally got to register today....

as a member of Tasty Kitchen!

Have you stopped by Pioneer Woman's new recipe site? Well, it is fabulous and today I registered to be a member.

Last week she had a contest, which was only open to members, and the prize was a trip to the new Lodge she and Marbolo Man recently re-modeled.

And next time she has that contest, I am SOOO going to be a winner.

But for today, I registered. And I think I will try this yummy recipe with the baking itch I got this afternoon and the ripe bananas on my counter!

What's the best new recipe you've tried lately?

Don't look now...

2009-07-24T16:53:00.002-06:00

I love my church.

I really love the people that God has brought to Creekside, and continues to bring to our church.

In August our little church will be celebrating our 5th anniversary, and we have a HUGE day of celebrating planned and today I got an email from one of our fabulous team members with a link to the first publication about our big day.

What awesome volunteers, and what an exciting milestone we will be celebrating!

Turn your volume way UP!

2009-07-23T20:07:00.003-06:00

On top of being HILARIOUS, this video brought tears to my eyes.

I know what it is like to have the kind of friends that would do anything for me. Even if it was inconvenient or uncomfortable for them. I have been blessed to have friends in my life who will do whatever it takes to make my wedding day be exactly the way I want it, and this video reminded me of just how blessed I am.

So were this bride and groom.

So, as you watch, laugh, and pass this video along, take a minute to thank God for those people in your life who would do ANYTHING for you......even something like this!

Turn your volume way down...

2009-06-27T17:26:00.002-06:00

Well, now you know I am really procrastinating on the packing process for our staff retreat!

I was charging up my flip camera for our trip, and somehow figured out how to upload video to my blog...

The following video was taken on May 17, 2009. This was the date of the Grand Opening of our new building, and the Grand Re-opening of our Children's and Youth Building. There are so many things I would love to share about that day, but this video just brought tears to my eyes.

I just started a discipleship group with fourth and fifth graders. They lead our worship time, serve the adult volunteers, and learn all kinds of things about being a servant leader on Sundays.

This particular Sunday was there FIRST day to lead from the stage. Some where nervous, some where beyond excited, and I was just excited to see what God had in store for these kids.

The girl on the right is one of my fifth grade praise team leaders. She had come early to practice the songs before church started. The girl on the left is a first grader who wandered into the room and demonstrated exactly why I love working with kids....

(For some reason I happen to be singing along, so turn your volume down.....)

It is amazing to me time and time again how God is faithful to use ANYONE who is willing to further His kingdom. Age, gender, past sins, education, wealth, marital status, none of these things can prevent God from using a willing vessel.

What a wonderful God we serve!

The Return to Blogging...

2009-06-27T12:26:00.002-06:00

Well, the natives are getting restless....all two of you!

So, I have decided to make a return to my poor neglected blog.

June has been a very hectic month, and I am anxiously awaiting the arrival of July. It seems as though my restful season of ministry is shaping up to look a little differently than I had anticipated.

So much has happened that I simply don't know where to start...thus the long departure from blogging.

Today, I simply blog as a means to procrastinating the daunting task of packing for a trip FULL of unknowns.

I can remember...

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...when my heart was so hardened, that I rejected the notion of serving in a paid position at a church. Through His grace and mercy, God softened this hard heart of mine...

...when these 15 acres were nothing but dirt, brush, and a vision God laid on the heart of a handful of His servants. Through His Spirit's leading, and the bold and obedient hearts of the leadership of this church, it is so much more than that today...

...when I thought the system I had in place for a children's ministry of about 30 kids would be the system I would use until the day I died. Through His persistence and patience, my heart has become a little more adaptable and accepting of change.

...when I doubted if I would see a second building on this property in my lifetime. Through His mighty power and great favor, in the past four years I have seen two hospitals (as we like to call our buildings) completed...

I got a call today from a very dear friend. She simply said, "I just wanted you to know that I am excited about tomorrow. I am so excited about what God is doing, and I just wanted to call and tell you I am excited."

And I know it was the prompting of the Lord.

He spoke through all the details, all the chaos, and all the frustration and reminded me what was happening around me.

God is moving.

Sometimes I miss the evidence of His hand at work, but today (and hopefully many more days to come) I choose to stop, slow down, and let my heart be captivated by what God is doing.

Oh, and in case you are wondering.... I am excited too!

Lunch is on me!

2009-05-05T18:46:00.003-06:00

Okay, well I am not technically paying for your lunch, but here is a freebie you won't want to miss!

KFC is apparently trying to change its name..... no longer will they be known for their "kentucky fried chicken" they are trying to make their mark in the grilled chicken world as well.

So, head to Oprah's website, or click here, and download your coupon for a free meal.

And we are not just talking chicken people, two pieces of chicken, two sides, and a biscuit! That is pretty nice deal for your lunch today, huh?

Hope your day is fabulous, and filled with fun!

Jetsons....

2009-05-04T21:49:00.003-06:00

Okay, I need your help (yes again...but who is keeping track...not me!).

I am sure most of you have heard of the Roomba (irobot vacuum cleaners) before, and I am wondering who out there 1) has one, and what your thoughts are about it 2) who has thought about buying one, and any thoughts you want to share 3) who knows someone who has one...you are getting the drift...right?

I recently learned that there is now also a Scooba.

Did you know this magnificent Scooba sweeps, mops, and dries your floors for you?

Oh dear, I am in love! Trouble is, I think it would take about five of them to magically clean the square footage of our soon to be Children's and Youth building....

So, who wants to donate a Scooba to my church?

Not all at once....I just need five lovely volunteers!

Well, it's Monday...

2009-05-04T08:07:00.002-06:00

I hate to state the obvious, but it's Monday.

Swine Flu, I mean H1N1KB2 virus, formerly known as Swine Flu, hysteria seems to be dying down....Cross your fingers everyone!

While the weather just barely decided to cooperate with me yesterday as we tried to finish out the last game of our Upward season, I had a thought.

Not a particularly new or deep thought.

Just a thought.

"I really love my job."

I might have been rained on yesterday, covered in mosquito spray and sweat, dealt with head strong two year olds and forty year olds, but I sure love my job!

So, today I ask you, even when you have to do things that might not be exciting or glamorous...do you still love your job?

Things about my church that might scare you...

2009-05-01T11:20:00.002-06:00

On Wednesday I received a text from my boss that read,

"5' alligator in the lake...Ronnie shot it"

I do not have the creative capacity to make this kind of stuff up...I promise you! And you might remember back to this story that happened during the fall, which would refresh your memory to the lake on our property.

Well, Ronnie happens to be on our leadership team, and the alligator couldn't be found after it was shot.

Call me a skeptic, but when you are talking A.L.L.I.G.A.T.O.R.S., I want to KNOW whether or not the thing is really dead, as in find the carcass to prove it to me.

I got my wish today.

Usually I do not work at the church on Fridays, but today was an exception. I was walking a delivery to our contractor in our new building and saw a group of guys scurrying around the lake.

Using mainly their noses, they found the dead gator, and threw it in the back of their truck for some photo opportunities.....and tried desperately to get me to TOUCH the dead alligator. (Not on this side of heaven boys, not on this side of heaven....)

Anyone want to wager a guess as to the A.L.L.I.G.A.T.O.R.'S actual length?

I will just say that it was NOT 5' as originally reported to me.

Now I am left to figure out if not knowing if the gator was dead for sure was a better or worse fate than seeing the thing up close and personal!!!!

Creekside, it's one scary place.

I need your help!!!

2009-04-28T20:14:00.002-06:00

I am in search of some new rugs for church.

I have searched some of my favorite sources and not found what I am looking for yet.

So, I am asking for your help.

Here are my requirements/needs for these rugs:
-need two identical rugs (rectangular or square, no smaller than 6x4, no larger than 8x6)
-must uphold to high levels of traffic

I would like for these rugs to also be:
-bright and colorful, kid-friendly
-at the same time not too loud, as to coordinate with our tan walls
-not too expensive

So the challenge is two-fold. I am open to suggestions of great places to look for rugs fitting into these categories, but what also LOVE to see any that you might find online.....

Come on, you know you've been dying for a good challenge.....

Will we have a winner?!?!

"If you like then you shoulda"

2009-04-28T14:57:00.001-06:00

For Amber....and those of you too chicken to admit you had never seen this SNL clip before...

Best way to start your day!

2009-04-28T06:49:00.002-06:00

Please toss aside whatever you may believe about the show Dancing with the Stars.

Watch. This. Clip. of last night's show.

You won't be disappointed, particularly if you have seen Justin Timberlake and Beyonce's SNL skit.

The first four minutes are all you have to watch....but you won't regret it!

Oh, and, you're welcome!

When it is really hard...

2009-04-27T21:16:00.002-06:00

Today I really wanted to be in Kansas.

One of the things about growing up I hate the most is the distance that life seems to naturally put between people who you love. I know it is part of the seasons of life we all walk through, but my heart grieves every time the distance prevents me from being physically present for dear friends miles and miles away.

Daisy, or Crazy Daisy as we sometimes called her (Heidi's grandmother) went to be with Jesus last week. While there is great rejoicing from her family that she is in a better place, it is times like this you want to be able to walk alongside those you love.

I have many precious memories with Daisy in them. I was blessed to have spent time with this incredible woman, who mothered a daughter who raised one of the most remarkable women I know.

Master of Complicated

2009-04-23T20:25:00.003-06:00

For many of my years here on earth, I have operated under the belief that life is complicated, it's hard, and to make sure it doesn't get the best of you one should really be prepared.

This belief was infiltrated through every aspect of my life. Relationships with others, with God, with family...My philosophy of ministry, my priorities in ministry, setting boundaries... everything.

There have been so many things that God has done in my heart and life since He brought me to Creekside, but today I am particularly thankful for how He has been changing my life of complication to one of simplicity.

I have a long way to go, but I am beginning to see a philosophy of simple taking root naturally in certain areas of my life...and that gives me hope. This passage gave me so much encouragement and hope today.....

Are you tired? Worn out? Burned out on religion? Come to me. Get away with me and you'll recover your life. I'll show you how to take a real rest. Walk with me and work with me—watch how I do it. Learn the unforced rhythms of grace. I won't lay anything heavy or ill-fitting on you. Keep company with me and you'll learn to live freely and lightly. Matthew 11:28-30, The Message

Here's to spending time learning the unforced rhythms of grace...

Now you can all sleep tonight...

2009-04-21T12:52:00.002-06:00

My dear friend Lisa tidied (?), tidy-ed, straightened, oh what the heck...cleaned up the ol' blog for me! Now the dramatic red I just HAD.TO.HAVE. several months ago is gone away and we have a fresh coat of white to mark all over.

Yes, this would be the same Lisa that magically made it all red the last time I got this whim!

I know how to pick friends....yes, I do!

(Like how I rambled on and on and never actually said, "thank you"? This ain't 'Ramblings' for nothing!!!)

Okay, back to the point of the second blog of the day-not that any of you are counting!- carpet cleaners.

We had a wee bit of a flood here this weekend and the church got a good soaking. Sunday morning we had water in the building, which wasn't too much trouble because we have cement flooring in our entire building...except for one room.

Well, turns out getting the mildewy smell, and moisture all together out of the carpet and building is a bit harder than I anticipated.

With the help of Amber (via cell phone) I gathered a large variety of Oust, carpet cleaners, and Oxy Clean to attempt to solve the problem.

Here is my frustration.

Why, oh why would you sell carpet freshner that smells like rain or fruit? Seriously, how does either of those scents help the mildew smell? Or for that matter, how does either of those smells help pet odor?

Where is the mountain breeze, or clean sheets, or heck even vanilla would have been better than those choices.

I will report back on if I was able to conquer the odor in our 7500 square foot building or not.

Anyone have any secret tips to clean mildew odors or damp carpet?

The Summer Scarf

2009-04-21T10:01:00.003-06:00

Okay ladies, and gentlemen feel free to respond too, at your own risk of course, I want to know something....

Who out there is participating in the summer scarf trend?

I may be running close to over-doing this trend, but I am loving the fun, flirty summer scarf trend....trouble is, I don't see that many of my friends joining in the fun.

That leaves me to wonder....did I make up this trend? Are they too embarrassed to tell me I don't have enough fashion sense to be a part of this trend? Or do they have a deeply rooted belief that summer scarves no matter how light weight, have no place in the south?

Whatever the case, I am wearing my most sparkly scarf today, and I just makes me smile!!!

(P.S. I did notice Sarah wearing a very cute scarf in some pics of Easter on her blog.....or maybe it was on facebook....)

My Kiss

2009-04-20T17:43:00.002-06:00

There is a little boy who loves me.

I mean, he really loves me.

He loves to come running, bounding, full body slam hugging into me.

And I wouldn't trade it for anything.

This Sunday, after escaping his car successfully, he came bounding through the front door of church.

Running right to me, shouting, "Hash-ee, Hash-ee!"

He gave me his whole hearted hugs, and I kissed his chubby little face.

Then I said, "Jared, where's my kiss?" Implying, of course, I was hoping he would give me a little peck on the cheek back.

Instead, he pointed to my lips.

"No, those are my lips Jared. Where's my kiss?"

Again, he pointed to my lips.

"No, Jared. Those are my lips. Where's my kiss from you?"

You guessed it. Again, he pointed to my lips.

Finally, I figured it out.

"Jared, are you gonna give Hash-ee a kiss too?"

And he planted a big, wet, slobbery kiss on my cheek.

He looked so proud of himself when he saw me smile.

Then he was done with all the love and affection, and off to his class.

For real. I mean, for real, for real...

2009-04-20T08:39:00.002-06:00

Okay, after hundreds of emails begging me to return from my blogging absence, and several dozen phone calls from close, adoring readers, I have decided to return to regularly scheduled blogging.

Now that we got that out of the way...

Does it bother anyone else that the red background doesn't match my new spring-ish template? Well, hope it doesn't distract you too much, because Lord knows I can't figure out how to change it. (Don't bother trying to help me in the comments, we go through this same drama every time I change templates......)

So, here is a question for you; what does it say about a church when a member starts a facebook group for the church, without being asked by church staff, not as a part of a strategy, but simply in an attempt to create community and connect with people he might not have a chance to on Sunday mornings.

Share your thoughts...does your church have a facebook group?
And while we are on it....who out there twitters?

Priceless.

2009-04-11T17:00:00.003-06:00

This year, in the midst of a very busy work schedule, it seems as though I truly found a way to celebrate my birthday for an entire month!

From great friends coming to visit, on very short notice, from two states away... to a birthday celebration with my coffee gals after my actual birthday.

In fact, the picture above is of the last birthday gift I received. It quickly became a most treasured belonging, as it is laden with love and meaning.

Not only does each square have a special meaning or significance, but each square is also a pocket!!! It is accented with pink...one of my favorite colors.

As I prepare my heart for worshiping my Redeemer and Risen Lord, I am moved by all the love that has surrounded me this past month. I can't help but wonder just how little I actually grasp of the vastness of His Love.

His Reckless pursuit of my soul, and yours.

And the all encompassing forgiveness He shed on the Cross.

My prayer is that each of us might get a glimpse into the forgiveness, love, and the reckless pursuit of the only Savior this Easter. And every day.

It's magic!

2009-04-02T09:19:00.002-06:00

Well, it finally happened!

I had a chance to cook again!

My schedule has been so crazy, that if I were to cook it would have to happen after nine o'clock at night....and then that would require me to have purchased the items needed to cook prior to my arrival home.

A month or so ago I attended a Pampered Chef bridal shower for a friend, and the sales consultant talked about their new "magic pot." She said you could cook chicken in the microwave inside this pot.

I didn't beileve her.

She said you could even cook them frozen, place a whole chicken in this pot, and even other kinds of meat (pork chops, pork tenderloin, etc.) and they would remain tender and juicy...not rubbery.

I didn't believe her.

And I didn't keep my mouth shut (quite unintentionally) I said to the gal sitting next to me that I didn't believe it was possible.

The pampered chef consultant heard me.

"We have a 100% satisfaction guarantee. If you use it and don't like it, you can return it."

The challenge had been issued....the purchase was made!

I got my magic pot on Sunday, and finally had a chance to break it out last night.

And let me tell you, it.is.magic. Truly magic!

I even used it again this morning....it is truly worth the investment if you are short on time and want to have an option for still pulling together a quick and easy dinner....

29

2009-03-26T10:56:00.002-06:00

It's almost noon on my 29th birthday and I have decided it is time to make time to blog.

At least for today...

Today, I don't feel much different than yesterday.

I don't feel older.

I don't feel wiser.

I don't look any grayer. (Not open for discussion, thank you very much.)

But I hope I am more grateful.

And more patient.

More tender-hearted and compassionate.

Most of all I pray I am more hopeful about what lies ahead. In my own personal life, in the life of my church family and community, and in the lives of my dearest friends.

Full of hope, eagerly anticipating what is to come.

That is what I want to be/have more of when I grow up.

Jadyn-isms...

2009-03-25T21:10:00.002-06:00

I just want to tuck some of these precious memories away in my heart for years to come...

"You're my best Ashlee."

"We're both smiling, that means we love each other. Alot."

"I like your stripes Ashlee."

"I'm your little superstar. You just love your little superstar, don't you?"

"I'm a special "A" girl, because there is also a "J" in my name. So, I'm a special "A" girl."

She knows just how to turn my heart into mush.

Total mush....because she's my best Jadyn!

Happy Eve of Pi Day

2009-03-13T07:32:00.002-06:00

That's right. It's not Friday the 13th around here, it's the eve of Pi Day!

You might not hear much from me over the weekend, but if you have a chance, would you please pray for Heidi and Kavin as they journey across many miles today? Pray for safety, sanity, and a speedy arrival!!!! :)

And for poll dance Friday.....

What is your favorite kind of pie?
a) anything fruit
b) anything chocolate
c) pecan pie
d) pizza pie is the only pie I care for...
e) not a big fan of pie...

And for kicks...let us know if you have ever celebrating Pi day.....

For all of you not on "the" facebook...

2009-03-11T08:23:00.002-06:00

This precious face is coming to see me!

For the best birthday month gift a girl could ever have, my dearest friend Heidi is coming in town this weekend! All the way from Kansas! With her one year old son....in the car!

And I would like for all the world to know just how spontaneous and fly-by-the-seat-of-our-pants we both feel.

Oh, I do realize that deciding something on Tuesday that you are going to do on Friday does not pass everyone's definition of spontaneity, but it far surpasses our definition!

I can hardly bring myself to believe it is true!

We will be boot scooting to the rodeo on Monday night....

Even on Saturday...

2009-03-07T08:24:00.003-06:00

Well, it is Saturday and I am finding myself at a loss for what to do. Believe it or not, this is my first Saturday of 2009 where work obligations haven't determined my day's events.

What's a girl to do? Well, I have a shoe shopping trip planned with Amber and I am attending a birthday party (for an adult...another rarity in my life!) this afternoon.

But first I wanted to post this picture (sorry it is not straight....it's Saturday, what can I say?). In February we had a Panini night one Friday.

It was so much fun! We had build your own dinner panini and then Amber had found a lovely dessert panini recipe. We were all in agreement that the dessert panini's were a repeatable recipe, perhaps even a 'regular'!

You can see all the ingredients for this fabulous recipe in the picture.
Fresh strawberries, sliced
Pound cake, we used frozen which made it easy to slice thin
Nutella

To assemble you want to slice the pound cake thin, spread nutella generously on one piece of pound cake, and top with sliced strawberries. Then you top it with a second piece of pound cake. You are now ready to press your panini.

They were delicious. You should try them. Tonight!

Have a lovely weekend...

It's Friday!

2009-03-06T12:53:00.002-06:00

I was wondering through Target this week while chatting on the phone with Heidi.

I had put a couple shirts in my cart and ran across a pretty cute one that was out of my price range. I started talking about the shirt to Heidi, and we made an interesting discovery together....

It seems that we both gravitate to solid colors.

Truth be told, we both have a little (tiny!) inner fear of becoming the old lady who thinks she is so. in. fashion. with. her. new. fangled. shiny. windsuit.

And so my question on this poll dance Friday is fashion related....

Do you think a closet full of solid color tops is the first step towards being totally out of touch with the fashion trends of the day???

a) what else could it mean?
b) yes, it is the first step, but you have several more steps until I will refuse to be seen with you in public!
c) No way, it has nothing to do with the color, more with the style of the tops....
d) No, trendy accessories say any outfit!
e) are you sure you want to take fashion advice from me????

So, think through your closet and fill me in....

Today...

2009-03-05T15:15:00.002-06:00

Not only is today my brother's birthday, but is also Day #10 in the 30 Rock Tour.

If you don't know what the 30 Rock Tour is, you need to start reading here....

And if you are hoping for a 30 Rock Tour of your own, you better hope your friends are as cool as mine...

I love my brother. I wish he lived closer, and I wished it was easier for us to talk more consistently, but we have the kind of relationship where I know we will always be able to tell each other the important things. I never have to wonder if difficult decisions about our parents will cause tension between us, because I know Mike and I won't let that happen (plus, he will just let me make all the hard decisions...right Mike?).

Today he turns 31, with probably a lot less fanfare than last year (although he did not have a 30 Rock Tour...) but that is probably quite alright with him.

I have always admired my brother's wisdom, and his very generous heart.

He is a wonderful brother, and the best big brother I could have ever asked for!

I love you Mike, very much.

Almost a year ago...

2009-03-04T19:09:00.002-06:00

It was almost a year ago that I found myself sitting at a memorial service I never dreamed I would be attending in my twenties.

Two very dear friends of mine lost their mother last year.

I just wanted to share a couple of things I learned from their mother, in the countless times I ate dinner at their house, played games at their house, and worshipped together with her in church.

Perhaps the most significant lesson I learned from Linda was that hospitality is about welcoming people into your home and serving them. It has nothing to do with what you have to offer, how much money you have to spend, or the kind of home you have to share with them. It is all about your heart.

Linda always opened the doors of her home to our youth group, and usually fed us all too. Once we went away to school, so would always have me over for dinner when I was home on break. I can't tell you what she served, or about the plates we ate off of, but I always knew I was welcomed and wanted when she invited me to their home. She probably taught me more about the gift of hospitality than anyone else in my life thus far.

Another wonderful lesson I learned from Linda was the value of playing with your kids- no matter what age they are! I can't think of any other friend I had growing up whose parents played games with us. Some of my fondest memories in the Wilfong home were spent around the kitchen table playing dominoes, cards, or any number of games. Looking back on it now, I can see how valuable that time must be as a parent, to truly get to know your children - and their friends! But I can also see how it fosters an environment that values interacting with each other, and one of fun.

Her life was one anchored by her faith in Christ. She was a dedicated prayer warrior, perhaps most fervently for her family, and there is no doubt in my mind that her prayers saw them through all kinds challenges and hardships.

If you are a praying person, would you take a minute to lift up the family she left behind? I know this time of year will always be an emotional for them (and for all those who were loved by Linda), so I know your prayers would be a blessing to them. And me.

Say it isn't so...

2009-03-03T11:19:00.002-06:00

I still don't know what to think...

Am I upset?

Am I disgusted?

Do I feel let down?

What is this pile of emotion I still have this morning after giving THREE hours of my life to 'The Bachelor' finale and After the Rose (part one, apparently!).

Chris Harrison gives his first hand account, which I found somewhat helpful to me sorting through my mess of emotions.

Bottom line; I just don't think Jason is the kind of guy who should be on the Bachelor. Sure, from ABC's perspective he's probably gold. But, he just seems too emotional to be able to keep a grip on reality in the midst of unreal situations (25 beautiful women fighting for you, fantasy dates, no job concerns, fancy cars, massive diamond engagement rings, etc.).

So, fess up...who watched it? And what the heck do you make of all that drama???

It's here!

2009-03-02T10:59:00.002-06:00

March that is....

It seems like February would never end, which is a pretty sad statement seeing as how it is the SHORTEST month of the year! Yikes.

For me, March was ushered in with some amazingly delightful things;
-The first Sunday of my pilot program at Church...which made me even more excited about what God has in store for our Children's ministry this year.
-Our second annual volunteer appreciation event in which we did tours of the new building (which is coming along fabulously!), gave away lovely t-shirts, and enjoyed a hilarious rendition of Michael Flatley and his back up dancers...

And, it was all topped off with coffee with my fave coffee gals....

So, how was your first day of March?

A powerful picture...

2009-02-25T22:20:00.002-06:00

I don't know what it is about this picture, but I can't get enough of it.

It might be the stop sign smack dab in the middle, seeming to shout, "Wait! Don't forget what you were created to do...Go and make disciples of all people."

Or maybe its the way the reminder simply hangs in the midst of God's beautiful handiwork.

Perhaps it's just the thought of how many thousands of people will pass under this sign, after just encountering God at camp.

Or it might just be that it speaks right to my heart...

A day full of opportunities...

2009-02-24T15:25:00.002-06:00

The list maker in me is cringing as I type this next sentence.

Some times it is good to have a day where nothing gets crossed off your list.

(That was really hard to type. Honestly.)

Today, has been that day for me. Sure, I answered phone calls, returned emails, and did a couple of actual "work" related tasks, but largely today has been full of opportunities (or interruptions, however you want to see it!).

It started with three sweet friends, who have probably been friends longer than I have been alive, who stopped by the church. One of the ladies worships here, and she just wanted to show her friends her church. It was such an honor to be here, watch as she told about her church with pride, and answer their questions.

I am so blessed to know I have friendships like that in my own life. Where when one of us might have trouble getting around, we won't let that stop us from showing off what God is doing in our lives.

Then there was the delivery that went wrong.... but seeing God's hand in the situation, and seeing another member of our church provide the solution.

And then, my best friend discovered facebook chat! It was the sweetest, most soul satisfying conversation. I needed it more than I knew.

And, soon, I am going to head off to meet up with one of my fabulous volunteers for dinner. I am really looking forward to our time together, as I know God is up to something....

So, as this day starts to wind down, and nothing substantial got crossed off my list it is easy for me to dwell on those incomplete items.

But not today.

Today I am thankful for the gentle reminders that my job is not a "job."

Today I am reminded that people are more important than lists.

And today, I am counting the many blessings in my life.

2009-02-24T12:45:00.002-06:00

So, I know the face lift isn't dramatic (yet!) but this template was called "sassyness" and I simply couldn't pass it up!

It made me smile, get a little gushy, and decide that sassyness was just what the doctor ordered...

Poll dancing...you know you want to!

2009-02-20T08:20:00.002-06:00

Okay, for today's poll, you are going to head over to Amber's blog and try to answer her riddle.

If one my readers guesses correctly we will both award your guess.

Now, scurry over...make lots of guesses, and overwhelm her little ol blog!

2009-02-19T17:27:00.002-06:00

Dear Blog Readers,

I am so sorry this little ol' blog has been neglected and ignored this month. Okay, to be real honest, most of 2009...

But I am here to give you a bloggy promise.... March is going to change things around here! Come March we are going to have a face-lift, a video blog, and a return of daily posts.

That's my bloggy promise to you. So stayed tuned, and for today offer up your favorite ideas for blog posts in March.

That's all, come back tomorrow for Poll Dance Friday....

Me :)

Poll dancing...better late than never!

2009-02-13T22:49:00.002-06:00

It has been one of those weeks.

Actually, it has been one of those months.

Can anyone else out there relate?

Well, I had every intention of some funny, hilarious, attention grabbing poll for us all to dance to, but I just can't seem to formulate it in my head.

So, this week's edition is open ended.... write your own response. Funniest, most clever, or best answer just may get to do their own poll dance on this here blog next Friday!

What is your most memorable Valentine's Day?

Take the poll, do a dance...

2009-02-06T09:52:00.002-06:00

So, last night I got pulled over.

No lie. It was about 9:30 and I was on my way home from work. Going the same route I go about 96% of the time. I know the speed limits, I know the stoplights, stop signs, speed traps, etc. I might even be able to tell you when to turn with my eyes closed.

So, why did I get pulled over?

Apparently I "rolled" through a stop sign. I don't doubt the cop, because I honestly couldn't remember if I had stopped when he told me, and I wasn't even two blocks from the sign.

How could this happen? Well, I was pretty deep in thought about a couple things that had happened yesterday, and I honestly just think I was in auto drive mode.

Graciously, the cop simply gave me a warning and told me to pay attention. After a series of questions like, "Ma'am, are you confused?" and "Do you know where you are?" and other questions that showed he was wondering if I was awake or under the influence.....

So, it made me think...

How many times have you been pulled over?
a) I can't count that high!
b) more than 10...don't judge me!
c) just a few, I am a safe driver and follow all traffic laws....almost all!
d) never, I am an insurance agent's dream!

How many times have you been pulled over and received a warning?
a) Never....I'm not a girl! (or my luck has never extended to getting out of tickets!)
b) Never, remember I've never been pulled over?!?
c) Maybe, but I don't remember...
d) Every single time.... I've got serious charm!

And just for kicks....tell us your best being pulled over story.... you know you want to!

Let the poll dancing begin!

SURPRISE!

2009-02-04T15:49:00.002-06:00

I love a good surprise.

Let me re-phrase that, I love to plan a good surprise. The whole being surprised part, I am a little hard to understand when it comes to that. In fact, I can only think of one or two times in my life where I have genuinely been surprised...

I have jumped ship already.

I love to plan a good surprise. And right now, I have a couple of surprise pots brewing AND I COULD NOT BE MORE EXCITED.

The trouble? I am at my limit! I got a phone call today from a dear friend who shared some news with me, and then uttered these words, "No one else knows yet, so if you could help us keep this a surprise..." and instead of my heart soaring (like it normally would when I am part of a secret surprise....) it dropped.

I just want to spill the beans and see some surprises come to life....

So today, I made a whole HUGE deal out of something that wasn't even a real surprise. Wednesdays are my half days, and I take Jadyn and Alaina to the Little Gym. Usually we grab lunch some place special, or get a special drink afterward, or something to make the day fun.

Today, I kept our plan a secret, and said everything was a SURPRISE!

You would have thought it was Christmas. We had such a special day, loads of fun, and I got my fix for surprises!

So, what's the best surprise you ever pulled off?

I am supposed to be preparing for a meeting....

2009-02-02T13:18:00.003-06:00

In less than half an hour I am supposed to be leading an important meeting with one of my key leaders in our Children's ministry.

And while I closed down everything else I was working on, turned on some reflective music, and planned to just pray through the agenda, somehow I ended up here. Blogging. To you, my faithful bloggy friends.

Someone hurt my feelings yesterday. And you know what? I can be sensitive, especially when it comes to the ministry God has entrusted me with, and criticisms of my handling of the ministry.

And while I tried, desperately, to let it roll off my back, it didn't. It hasn't. And it might not.

Because I realized something; this ministry I have been entrusted with is so deeply embedded in this heart of mine, that we share the same heartbeat.

So, when I see actual footprints on the wall in our pre-school class/basketball court A, my heart skips a beat, and I get teary-eyed.

To be a part of something so much bigger than my mind or heart could have ever imagined, it is truly humbling.

To know that people matter more than keeping our building looking nice, or new, or sometimes even clean... is truly exciting.

Hurt feelings are a small price to pay...

Let's take a poll...

2009-01-29T20:56:00.002-06:00

So, from here on out I am deeming Friday, "Let's take a poll" Friday.

That means all five of my loyal blog readers must weigh in, and participate in the poll (or polls) of the week... I can hear you screaming excitedly on the other end of cyberspace! I know you know have a reason to make it through the week!

Today's polls are as follows:

Are you a fan of Facebook?
a) I am on facebook everyday and have more friends than Obama
b) I am on facebook, but only read the updates I get in my email.
c) I will never join facebook, myspace is my heart beat.
d) I refuse to join any social network-ing cyberspace club....

AND....

I will be watching the Superbowl....
a) in my own home, and mostly for the commercials
b) with friends, and lots of fab grub
c) with friends, but I have no clue who is playing (or even what sport it is!)
d) if you pay me money...and only if there is LOTS of it!

I might even give a special prize to the first person to play in our first ever edition of Friday's poll dance!

Just another Tuesday...

2009-01-27T14:23:00.002-06:00

So, I have been thinking about something since my staff meeting this morning....

am I willing to do ANYTHING to introduce kids to Jesus? Will I do whatever it takes, regular of the sacrifice it requires of me, and others, to advance the Kingdom?

Or, do some sacrifices risk as much harm as they do possible advancement to the Kingdom?

Your thoughts?

What's for dinner tonight?

2009-01-23T10:46:00.002-06:00

Last week we cancelled our Friday night home group due largely to weariness from sickness. But then, we found out some of our fave people were coming in to town, so we all decided having restaurant at a dinner would be easier.

On a Friday night.

With a party of 14 (actually 16, but two didn't need their own chair or highchair).

On a Friday night.

Because it would be SO much easier.

Says the group of people who spend 50 Friday nights a year together, eating in...

Needless to say, it was a bit of a rough start to our evening but fun to be with friends we don't get to see often enough.

This week, we are definitely having dinner in. And, something I have been very excited about....homemade cinnamon rolls! The Pioneer Woman's homemade cinnamon rolls.....

So, what's your plan for dinner tonight?

Conviction

2009-01-22T15:55:00.002-06:00

I know some of my readers avoid sports related posts like the plague.

This story happens to have football players as characters, but a message that will deeply mark your heart.

I can't help but wonder which players were more impacted by this game; the winners or the losers?

I know this for sure; the lesson everyone learned about their value and worth in the Eyes of their Creator has the power to change their lives for all of eternity.

Laurien has been talking about love on her blog (posts worth reading for sure!) and this article is such a great illustration of living our lives with the Love that sets us apart.

Scarves...

2009-01-22T08:30:00.002-06:00

So, I have scarf envy.

I love seeing women with scarves as an accessory, not necessarily because there is a neccessity to wear one.

Several blogs I read have recently had "tutorials" about how to tie scarves. And, wouldn't you know it I received the most beautiful red scarve as a Christmas present.

So, this morning, armed with my fab new scarf and a black t-shirt, and the knowledge from my scarf tutorials, I was determined to be cute.

Upon trying to tie my scarf in all the fun ways I had been taught, I came to the realization that perhaps my scarf is too short for the fun ways to tie I have learned.

So, are any of my loyal blog readers scarf fashionistas?

I am pretty sure I am still going to wear the scarf, because let's face it...it's almost nine and I am blogging about my outfit for the day instead of being productive!!!

What are you wearing today?

Ugh.

2009-01-19T12:19:00.002-06:00

I know when I am stressed.

Okay, truth be told I don't really know when I am stressed; I only seem to realize that I am stressed when my threshold has been passed and I started crying about the smallest, silliest things known to mankind.

Like MLK day. Why waking up this morning (when no one else in my house was...) made me cry, is as unexplainable as why I cried when I walked into Home Depot today.

When I got a good friend's voicemail....yup, you guessed it! Tears.

When I saw tables out in a room at church....waterworks.

And I know it is all because I am way past my manageable stress level.

So, I am having a double UGH Monday...how about you?

Just what I have always wanted...revealed!

2009-01-15T09:24:00.004-06:00

Sorry for the delay...I was hit with a bout of fever and yuckiness last night and could force myself to blog about the mystery gift.....

Without further ado....

I got a gift today. From my boss, Greg.
It wasn't wrapped, at least not in any kind of decorative paper or bag or bow... He simply handed one to me, and one to Joey.
It is rather boring, and extremely practical. It was in some kind of plastic packaging, with lots of instructions.
It is something I never thought I would own. Ever. EVER.
It probably came from some kind of hardware store, like Lowe's or Home Depot...ugh. These places make me crazy! They were in a bag from one of these stores, I simply can't remember which one. As far as I know neither of these places sell Top Hats or Canes Lisa.... sheesh!
I think I have to do some kind of assembly before it works correctly or serves its purpose.... double ugh. In fact, I have assembled it. Not sure if it is assembled correctly, and that is why I am not posting a picture of me wearing it. Yet.
It is something I asked for (and am really, really excited about!) but not the version I requested.... I asked for a pink one. Greg says they didn't sell pink ones where he bought them, but told me I could sand mine and paint it pink. I am still trying to decide how to make it uniquely mine...

It is

my very own

Hard hat!

Good job Lisa! Thanks for playing everyone!

Just what I have always wanted!

2009-01-13T14:35:00.002-06:00

I got a gift today.

It wasn't wrapped, at least not in any kind of decorative paper or bag or bow...

It is rather boring, and extremely practical.

It is something I never thought I would own. Ever.

It probably came from some kind of hardware store, like Lowe's or Home Depot...ugh. These places make me crazy!

I think I have to do some kind of assembly before it works correctly or serves its purpose.... double ugh.

It is something I asked for (and am really, really excited about!) but not the version I requested....

Any guesses?

I don't think you will ever guess..... because I don't think anyone can guess, I will even let you ask as many yes or no questions as you want.....

Let the guessing begin!

I want to remember this day...

2009-01-11T21:00:00.002-06:00

I can remember a time when having 20 kids in our children's ministry was crowded.

I can remember when the foundation of our current building was poured.

I can remember our first Sunday worshipping in the building (without AC!).

I can remember the day we had to switch to two services on Sunday.

I can remember each and every change we have had to make to accomodate our growing Children's ministry.

I can remember my first Sunday at Creekside.

I can remember going through a series of interviews wondering if God was calling me away, only to become more solidified in my call to Creekside.

But today, today I want to remember a day God showed up in a quiet storm.

I should have known He was stirring something only He could, when I drove to church the sky was the most brilliant shade of teal. Bright, unexpected, and radiant. I could barely tear my eyes from its beauty.

And somehow, in the midst of the next handful of hours, three hundred and fifty eight people worshiped their Creator together as one church family.

It was so incredibly awe-inspiring.

I love my church!

Palace Life, Lesson #21

2009-01-10T21:37:00.003-06:00

(Did you think I was exaggerating about the wallpaper? Check it out, doesn't it go well with the couch?)

There were very few times between the hours of noon and midnight that you would find less than five people in the Palace. Between the four of us that lived in the Palace, there seemed to always be some 'extras' hanging around.

The girls on the couch, didn't live in the Palace. But don't they look like they are at home? Eating, feeting up, hanging out; and they did this at least once a week. They were in Jamie's discipleship group which met in our house. They were just a couple on a long list of regulars that made The Palace their "home away from home" or escape from dorm life.

I don't think I realized it back then, but life in the Palace taught me how important it is to live life with others. Being able to invite others into your home, even if all you have to offer them is Ramen or mac-n-cheese. Not ignoring the door because you are sitting around the table, clipping coupons in your PJ's, because let's face it....that is real life.

And in sharing your real life with others, your own life is tremendously enriched.

10:18 p.m.

2009-01-07T22:17:00.003-06:00

Status.... I went for it. I may live to regret it, but I totally went for it.

Two doors off the hinges....check
One hide-a-bed couch moved....check
Desk taken apart and moved...check
Bed unassembled, reassembled and moved...check
All items in or on shelves, desk, or drawers in piles on floor....
Absolute chaos all around....check.

I am going to really love this next week....I can tell already. But if I survive this weekend it will be a miracle.....

Impatient much? Oh dear, oh dear......

Is it really Wednesday?

2009-01-07T16:01:00.002-06:00

So, I am really having an itch to do some major shuffling around of furniture.

Like moving my bedroom to where my office currently is, and moving my office into my current bedroom.

It would involve moving LOTS of furniture.

And a continued purge of things I have been "holding on to because I know I will need it the very second I dispose of it" which would be good.

I really don't have time for this project, but for some reason I have decided it would make my struggle with boundaries much easier to tackle.

So, why here is the deal....I need your vote....do I dare undertake this project? Will I benefit all year long?

HELP!!!!!

Here we go...

2009-01-05T08:42:00.002-06:00

Well, my weekend was rough.

If Saturday and Sunday were any indication as to what 2009 holds for me, then I am not quite ready to go one more day into this year.

I think for some time now I have "known" that God is doing mighty things all around me, but Saturday was one of those days were you realize that you have a lot of catching up to do to walk down the path He is blazing...

I am continually going through the process of figuring out if the things that are on my plate need to by on my plate, and what needs to be removed to provide balance and sanity to my life. One thing I have realized is that I have not made nearly a large enough portion for my personal life, and that is going to change this year.

So, this week I am going to post some things I am going to work towards figuring out this year, in an attempt to be accountable to the entire bloggy world. That is right...you can check in on me...ask questions, be annoying... whatever you see fit.

For those of you out there who are good at balancing your priorities, what tips do you have for me?

Welcome 2009!

2009-01-01T15:22:00.002-06:00

I had this great plan yesterday to post eight moments from 2008 that had been life shaping for me. I didn't get around to it, but I decided to nine things I am looking forward to in 2009. So, without further delay.... I bring you nine things to anticipate in 2009....

9. The opening of our new building at church!
8. The beginning of the Rockin 30 Tour....
7. Labor Day weekend (a mini reunion with some of my dearest college friends!)
6. My Dad's 60th birthday, and planning a special bash!
5. Acquiring some video editing skills so we can bring some videos to this little ol' blog...
4. Getting some healthier boundaries when it comes to my workaholic tendencies.
3. 90 (more on this next week...)
2. taking a vacation
1. See what surprises God has in store...

So, what are you anticipating in 2009? A year of firsts? New challenges? Spill it....

Up to no good....

2008-12-30T14:12:00.002-06:00

So, I realized today that I am the only church staff member in town right now...

And I am up to no good! :)

I high jacked (two words? one word? Hyphenated? Let's vote on this....) the church enewsletter, without clearing in through my boss (I shouldn't be privy to passwords unless you want me using them!) and sent out an e-newsletter to our entire church.

Just for fun.

Okay, not just for fun, but to share with them the most exciting news of 2008.... (not that I am overselling this one iota)

We have steel going UP on our new building! Yes, going UP, not just laying on the foundation or construction sight, but actually standing up (and I supposed bolted down!) on our slab.

The sight of it got me so excited I almost drove into a ditch (not hard to do if you have ever driven in our church parking lot). Lucky for you bloggy friends I have a new electronic toy and took some footage with it, so you might be able to hear and see my take on it....

But for now, if you are interested in what has gotten me all excited, head here. It is a live feed of our contruction site. You might even catch me out in the courtyard if you time it just right!

A Christmas miracle for sure!

2008-12-28T20:12:00.003-06:00

You know things are looking up for this little blog when the Christmas decorations come down before the year ends!

I hope your Christmas was full of as much love, joy, and fun as mine was. I feel rested, refreshed, and excited as we inch closer to the start of 2009.

And, I am working on some fun things that hopefully will show up here, for you my bloggy friends!

So, spill it...what was the best part of your Christmas? I think mine was truly being able to shut work off, and enjoy the company and presence of my family.

You just can't trust bloggers these days...

2008-12-24T09:30:00.002-06:00

Some people promise to blog straight through the holidays, and then leave you high and dry!

What is the blogging world coming to? Just when you thought you could trust a blogger or two....

I had this great plan to write my posts and have them magically post on the days for you to enjoy, but that won't be happening.

But I do want to wish each of you a very Merry Christmas. I pray that this holiday brings great peace to you and yours, as you savor the gift of our Savior. For those of you who face some lonely, or difficult circumstances this Christmas, please know that I will be praying for you to be comforted and strengthened by the Prince of Peace.

This Christmas I am more aware than ever that the holidays can be extremely hard to walk through for some people. Perhaps you have lost a loved one, or the end of the year brings a reminder of things you wish to forget, whatever the case may be you are not alone.

Christmas is all about you. You are loved, treasured, and known by the very reason for the season; Jesus, Son of God, Immanuel, the King of Kings.

May His love invade your soul today, and every day.

Merry Christmas bloggy friends!

Christmas Eve through the ages...

2008-12-23T21:23:00.002-06:00

I can remember being so jazzed about Christmas Eve as a child. But my excitement was coming only from the realization that the very next day would be CHRISTMAS!, not particularly anything about Christmas Eve itself.

That has gradually changed, and in all honesty, I think I am just as excited about Christmas Eve as I am about Christmas this year. My brother is flying in on Christmas Eve, which alone makes it a special day. Christmas Eve has usually included a candlelight service, which is such a special tradition to partake with family members, but also to add to the real preparation my soul longs for in anticipation for Christmas Day.

We don't have any special Christmas eve PJ or open a present on Christmas Eve traditions, but I think it is near to my heart because it is the beginning of such a special time for me both spiritually and emotionally.

So, what are your plans for this lovely Christmas Eve?

What's in a name?

2008-12-23T07:53:00.003-06:00

I have been thinking quite a bit lately about what is in a name. I have a wonderfully entertaining and thought provoking post coming about this, but somehow I just can't make it all come together.

So, I thought I would ask you married bloggers out there, how often are you referred to as Mrs. (insert your husband's name)?

I don't hear it very often any more, but then again that could be because I don't have a married name to be called...

So, the faster you answer this little poll...the faster you get a second post today!!!!

Unexpected Surprises...12 Days of Christmas

2008-12-21T22:07:00.002-06:00

I had an unexpected surprise tonight.

A great friend of mine, whom I haven't seen in ages, called me on the phone. He was minutes away from my house, and wondered if he could stop by with his family.

It was so wonderful to get to meet his daughter, and catch up with he and his wife.

And it got me thinking about what I would have missed if I hadn't answered my phone (which I was tempted to do). It might not have been something I was planning on doing, or even something I thought I had time for that evening, but it ended up being such a wonderful blessing in my day.

Which made me think about how many unexpected surprises there are in the Christmas story. Mary being visited by an angel of the Lord, shepherds greeted by a heavenly host of angels, and the great unexpected surprise of them all; Mary giving birth to our Savior.

No one had those things planned for that day, and in fact had many other things they were to be tending to, but at the end of the day their unexpected surprise ended up being the most important event of their day- and life.

So, today, in the midst of all your holiday business, don't forget to say yes to unexpected surprises and visitors that might come your way!

12 Days of Christmas...are we there yet?

2008-12-20T20:17:00.002-06:00

Okay, I know I have mentioned a certain Christmas present I was making this Christmas a couple times on this ol blog, so I would like to report that I am FINISHED with this present.

And, in fact, I am quite pleased with how it turned out.

But what I am most excited about is the person who will be receiving this gift. I have taken pictures of the finished product to share with all of you, but also hope to persuade the recipient to take a few pictures of their own to share with us. Don't you think that would be nice?

So, my question to you bloggy friends, is what gift are you most excited about GIVING this year?

For me it is probably gift I just completed. A close second would be the gift I am giving my boss's family. A day of learning how to make tamales, and a day spent together. I can hardly wait!