As some of you have pointed out over the past couple months some of my posts have been quite vague.
You were right.
Since July I have been conversing with a church in Kansas City, Kansas about the possibility of joining their staff as the children's minister. It is a long, long story which I am quite tired of now...(sorry, if you want more details you will have to ask...)
I have finally come to conclusion on what to do.
I am staying here.
There are a million reasons to stay and a million reasons to go. And after spending way too much time talking and thinking about myself and my situation, I have come to a couple of decisions.....
1) To stay. I love Texas. I love my ministries. I know God has called me here, and will continue to challenge and strengthen me here.
2) My family is here. Not just my biological family, but my chosen family. Hopefully you know who you are....Could I have left before the arrival of lil Joe? Or precious Addison, #1 Astros fan? Could I have said goodbye to my students? Or my Friday night family? I could have. But I don't think God was asking me to....
To my chosen family; words will never quite express how much I love and value each of you. You are my blessing (sorry you got the short end of the stick!).
3) Sometimes choices are simply choices. And those of us overly analytical thinkers super size them into spiritual tests, challenges, and callings. Perhaps God is not as complicated as I often make Him....... in fact, I know He is not.
4) I know change is still coming, but I am not nearly as full of anxiety about whatever it may be.
5) Who could give up the Astros and the Longhorns? Sheesh. What was I thinking?!?!??!
6) What could I have done, that had eternal value and significance, with all the time I spent worrying and analyzing this decision? Forgive me Lord, please forgive me.
So, there is my big blog secret....you probably can tell why I couldn't post about it....
My Astros lost. But I am so proud of them. Especially Luke Scott (like Melanie says, because he is a Christian and he is single!!!!!)!
Sunday, October 01, 2006
Some clarity and details...
Posted by Ashlee Liddell at 5:33 PM
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so, when it boils down to it, i'm betting sports were definitely a very big reason to stay... ;-) which makes me smile. it always makes me smile to read about how dedicated to God you are, and at the same time incredibly dedicated to football teams (though not more than to God, of course).
i hope that your decision proves to be good; i know that i've never gone wrong in choosing to stay with the people i love.
Yaaaaaaaaaaaaay!!!!! I am so excited that you decided to stay. It sounds like your ministries here are awesome. And I love the Friday night family, too. And the Longhorns. I agree with Lindsay about the wisdom and blessings in staying with the people you love.
YAAAAAY!
Oh, Ashlee Liddell. I figured that's what you were struggling with. I think you're absolutely right that we make way too much out of some of the choices and decisions that come our way. Yes--choices are sometimes just choices.
I'm very glad you are staying.
p.s. I told Mel that you mentioned her in this blog, but not about the other stuff. :)
I wrote a comment but blogger ate it. :-/
I was just saying that what you did was brave. It's very hard to make decisions between two good things, and it can begin to seem like a trick question God has thrown at you. Congrats on making that decision!
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