Ten

My week was, well, stressful.

Not because it had to be, but because of my personality and the lessons I still have to learn about leadership, ministry, and just life in general.

And on Thursday night, I kind of lost it.

I have realized a couple of things since that evening.

1) I work with a man who values me as person and a partner in ministry. Sometimes it makes me uncomfortable when I realize just how much he cares and concerns himself with my well-being. Maybe because it forces me to face some of the baggage I am still hanging on to, and apparently like to carry around with me.

2) I internalize stress. This is not a new realization, but rather a painful reminder that I have not made progress in this area of my life.

3) I have been saying with my mouth that God is (and can) do great things in my midst, but at the first sign of trouble my actions reveal my lack of trust in that belief.

So when you mix all these things together, I have come to a point of action (for lack of a better term)....I am praying for ten volunteers with a heart for kids. Ten. It's my fleece.

I can't help shaking this feeling deep within in me that this has everything to do with a foundation God is laying for what lies ahead for me this year.

So, thanks for joining me in praying for "the" TEN.

I will let you know as they arrive....