Some thoughts...

So, I have been doing lots of thinking over Spring Break.

And I have come to lots of realizations.

Some I can share now, and some will have to wait until their conclusions have been settled upon.

Conclusion #1; I can not continue to live my life juggling everything I have been juggling.

Conclusion #2; While I have done a stellar job convincing myself I can handle the stress, in fact the stress has been eroding several aspects of my life without any realization by me.

Conclusion #3; I am responsible, and accountable, for choices I make and the consequences they have (even if these consequences seem to only impact me).

Conclusion #4; My health is valuable. My continuing to ignore it completely is going to start having serious long term effects.

Realizations...
Admitting these things is painful.
And admittance of these things brings out some serious issues of failure, even if the failure solely relates to my own perfectionist standards.
My priorities need some shifting.
If I believe that people are important, then my actions must reflect that belief. And if doing my jobs with excellence prevents me from reflecting this belief through my actions, then even if those jobs are in the "ministry," am I really honoring God?

So, I post this today to serve a couple purposes; 1) sort through everything going through my own head 2) to see if you have any helpful advice and perhaps most importantly 3) for accountability.