True ramblings

I don't know how to clearly communicate all that is swirling around in my head, but I simply have to attempt it in hopes the swirling will soon come to an end.

Lately I have been wondering if I really know what it means to be unselfish.

I mean, in some things it is really easy. Helping out a friend in need, sending a note of encouragement, giving to someone you know is in need, listening to someone who needs to talk, and the list could go on and on.

But what about my thoughts, the very way I am thinking entering a situation; do these thoughts truly reflect the life of someone who doesn't value their own rights?

Its all the "I" statements that run through my head that got me realing about this.

"I just don't know why____________"
"I just don't understand how they could ____________________"
"If it was up to me, I don't __________________"
"I did all I know how to"
"I wash my hands of the situation"
"It's not my problem"
"I don't have time"

It just seems like we (Christians) are permeated with the "I" syndrome in our churches. But I guess what concerns me even more than the visible "I" syndrome is those of us who suffer terribly from this syndrome, but are too busy serving and doing for those who suffer from the terminal strand of "I" that we don't even realize we too have been infected.

And if we don't receive treatment quickly, we will find ourselves terminally ill.